I'm Nobody's Peter Pan!
I'm nobody's Peter Pan! Wendy, pwede pa.
At first I was rushing to get to the bottom of this mysterious email I received because I thought Joe had sent it. I mean if he's telling me all these things, it will be flattering. But after reading for a while, I realized this email had to come from someone I know but is definitely someone who did not strike me in this way or whatsoever. Anyway, the more I read, the more I got freaked out with this person who won't just come up to me and talk to me. And eventually I decided I don't what to have anything to do with someone who has no balls to talk to me but had the patience to create an anonymous email address just for this purpose.
Here's the email I got:
I would give you up now. I would give up my hopes and dreams that were
built around you. I would salvage all my feelings left for you. And
from this day on, I would repetitively tell myself that 'This is all
it should be'. I would tell that to myself everyday until it grew
tired and eventually became numb to the idea of being with you, of
getting close to you.
I wanted to tell how much you mean to me but you don't even know I
exist. Maybe it wouldn't matter who I am but for me you are the most
beautiful thing that has ever happened. The cold breeze during hot
summer nights, the fairy in a child's dream, my peter pan who brings
me to the neverland.
We met not too long ago. Since then, I thought of nothing but to be
with you. You became the subject of my daydreams and for quite
sometime the reason why I get through tough times. I hope I'm not
scaring you or something.
At times, I just wanted to show up and see if you would like me too or
would even enjoy a short conversation with me. Tsk! It seems that my
courage isn't enough.
It's not that I am afraid of rejection. I just came to realize that I
am already at my limits. And it is time to do myself a favor, 'to let
go of the things that I know I could never have'
[Hikaru], I wish you well. Maybe what I am doing right now is pointless.
But for me it means a lot. I am not hoping that someday we could meet
again and finally came looking at the same direction. Instead, I am
wishing, hoping and praying, that one day I would prove to myself that
I have done the right thing. Please be happy.
Also, please look for the movie '5 centimeters per second'.
I hope that this letter would reach you.
